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November 11th, 2009

GRRRR @ 11:42 am

Current Location: not where i want to be
Current Mood: crushed crushed
Current Music: steamingly pissed off silence

ok, so here's a run down of my life. It sucks, i've missed two visits with my kids, and i need $60 to get home.  i'll never make it. I have a friend that is wiring me $20. That won't get me over the pass.  i am in graham washington, and need to get back to colville badly.  I helped a "friend" move here and once we got half way here they informed me that they were broke.  Can anyone help me? any help at all will be payed back as soon as i get home.  i just need to get there.  Please?!?!

November 10th, 2008

and so it goes @ 04:41 pm

Current Location: the library
Current Mood: busy busy
Current Music: none, i'm at the library
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I am at the library trying to find my kids social security numbers by looking up my tax return because everything is in storage.  Well, wouldn't ya know it, the h and r block site is down for maintenance.  So I wound up here instead.  Go fig.....

Things have been so shitty lately.  I can't even begin to explain.  I was going to move and say fuck this place, but I don't even think that would work out.  Fucking ninja clad pandas blocking all the exits.  Fuck it's a lot hartder to type on a laptop, aint it?  Weird. 

Like always, not much time.  I can't fucking wait to sit down at a computer that's mine and just stay there for as long as I fucking want to.  I miss my computer.  I don't have my music, or the ability to upload pics from my camera.  Good thing 'I have an extra card, cause if I didn't I would have to start picking ones to delete.  It's going to take a while to upload them all. 

Well, Gotta head back to moms swoon.  That sicks.  And keeps on sucking.  This is what I meant to say.  to moms soon, and that sucks.  oh, bother.....

September 9th, 2008

But that scar, that scar remains..... @ 10:27 am

Well, he is supposed to be packing up his stuff today and leaving tomorow.  He finally got it fromo eavesdropping on me and bill talking.  He seriously had a cup pressed to the wall listening in.  Anyhow, bill said he's being dumb.  That what he doesn't realise is that by refusing to leave, he is disrespecting me and proving valid my concerns of his not changing and putting his needs before everyone elses.  (duh) But David hearing it said by someone who isn't me I think drove the point home.  He is leaving for real and my stress levels just went WAY down.  Talk to you all soon.

September 4th, 2008

We'll have halloween on X-mas @ 04:58 pm

Current Mood: content content

Ok, so I really should've been keeping this updated better.  But only depressing things are happening.  I think we are getting divorced, he is leaving for a few days so I can sort out what I actually feel for him and if I am just really a miserable person or if it's just that he makes me that way.  I think we all know the answer to that, huh?  Well, those of you that know me know I'm not always miserable.  I am not just mean and angry and sad and in pain.  But I need to check if it's just that we are toxic together or I've really changed that much.  Plus, he won't leave in the first place unless I tell him it may be only temporary.  I am just sick of the fighting.  All the time, over everything.  My hands aren't used to all this typing anymore, and I already have a cramp in my finger.  You can call me later and we'll talk about details and what not if ya want. 

August 15th, 2008

life's been an array of stormy weirdness lately..... @ 04:57 pm

Current Mood: energetic energetic
Current Music: same songs....I just can't get enough
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Don't even remember how I found this meme but I came across it in the journal of  

momentyne , who happens to be pretty neat sounding...... ENJOY!!!

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your summer. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

I am going to try to list them in order of coolness.....we'll see how that goes, huh?






Psycho~Puddle of Mudd 
I wanna touch you~Def Leopard
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps~Cake
Honeybee~Tom Petty
Unskinny Bop~Poison
Number One Crush~Garbage
Ok, so 7 isn't nearly enough songs...... Somehow at least 3 of these songs (randonmly un-chosen from the list) have ended up on every cd I have made since it got sunny.  I love 'em!!!  A few other songs that have appeared multiple times?  

Wish you were here~Pink floyd
Volcano Girls~Veruca Salt
This cloud~Bush
Jungle love~Steve miller band

Really, it's been a pretty rockin summer.  I am sad that is seems like it's ending so soon.  :(  There is only 20 days until school starts I think....maybe 21.  Holy hell, huh? My BABY starts kindergaten in like 20 days!!!!

Oh yeah, and YOURE ALL TAGGED!!!!



August 11th, 2008

August 7th, 2008

Posted using TxtLJ (http://www.livejournal.com/manage/sms/) @ 11:58 am

I hate feeling like this. Just because it could be worse exodsm't mean i should have to be happy with how it is, right?
x's &o's :)

July 28th, 2008

quizzy @ 11:36 am

Your Power Color Is Teal

At Your Highest:

You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.

At Your Lowest:

You feel in a slump and lack creativity.

In Love:

You tend to be many people's ideal partner.

How You're Attractive:

You make people feel confident and accepted.

Your Eternal Question:

"What Impression Am I Giving?"


July 21st, 2008

(no subject) @ 05:18 am

 maybe I won't then, so there.... I am tired of trying.  I can't sleep, and thought I'd finally get around to doing something I'd meant to dget done.  That didn't work out. 

(no subject) @ 05:11 am

I am going to do this right.....

a crock full of nonsence